This is the book of my experience

Just Letting Out Some Heat But I Gotta Tell You,I'm Happier Than Ever! / Saturday, February 03, 2007

After practically disappearing from the blog scene for how many months, what can I say?2006 was a blast. I've finally found someone who'd stick with me all throughout,despite my nasty side. And surprise surprise, it wasn't my girlfriend of 18 months,or 19,or whatever. I don't really care anymore because IT is over and i'm GLAD. I've finally found someone whom has accepted me, the whole me. Including all my bad habits,my weaknesess, and everything! I just love her so much. We've been together since My ex and I broke up.

Don't get me wrong. She's not someone I used to get over Cheryll. She's the one who SAVED me from her. The one who made me realize that Cheryll wasn't the one for me. You know that feeling? It's like... being a puppy,in the middle of the rain, only having a small cardboard box near a trash can to sleep in. Then a little girl with a relatively little umbrella comes along and keeps you. Regardless of what breed you are, what color, or even how you smell like. That's the feeling I got with Janina. Heh, no matter what I did in the past, no matter who or what I am, she still took me in and served warm milk for me, bought me a collar, and gave me a warm basket to sleep in. No matter how i misbehaved, she never put me in the doggie cage nor tied me up on a leash. =)

Year 2007, it's been almost 4 months since we've been together and i'm having an even bigger blast! Specially that (insert name here) is out of my hair. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a bad ex, not bad at all. You could go ask all my ex's (except her) to know. They're all still my friends(again,except for HER). Lol,she's the only one i'm not friends with anymore. Why? It's was her choice. Lol. It was her choice to waste 4 years of friendship away. You know at first, I didn't want that. I mean, I still wanted to talk to her and stuff,shit like that. But she ended up avoiding me. Though I admit,it was my fault. But it was the only way to get to talk to her again. It was to give her what she wanted.

I told her lies. Lies about me not being to get over her, and about me and Janina breaking up coz I still love her. All those are just lies. I know it was wrong,specially about me and Janina breaking up but it was what she wanted to hear. Otherwise, if I said something different, she wouldn't talk to me and I didn't want that. I may not love her anymore but I still care about her. Well, used too. Now i just ended up hating her. I wanted to keep our friendship but nooooooooo... Lol. Well it's her loss anyway, not mine.

I even sent her this message when 2006 ended, saying sorry, begging and stuff. I know, it's not like me to beg and it happens on VERY rare occassions. What did I get back? Some rants about all my weaknesses,all the lies i've told, and all the "crimes" i've commited. It was total bullcrap on a bull's ass. She held everything i've done wrong against me. Didn't even remember the things I did for her. Plus she made Janina look stupid in her blog. And that pissed me off. Lol. She thought Janina didn't know about the break-up lie I told her. The thing is.... She did. Had permission from her. So no, i didn't make a bimbo out of her. She bad-mouthed some stuff about me too such as

1. I did drugs
2. I have a short temper
3. I lost my virginity to a 17 year old when i was 13
4. I hate being corrected
5. I'm a bad boyfriend

Well, Janina knows all that. But still, I'm still sleeping in the warm basket she gave me=). So i can't help but be proud of those and shout out "I AM A DRUG ADDICT WHO PUTS FIGHTS WITH EVERYONE. WHO LOST HIS VIRNITY AT A VERY YOUNG AGE INSIDE A CAR. WHO HATES BEING CORRECTED. AND WHO IS A BAD BOYFRIEND!!!".

You see the thing is...

1. I did drugs coz I didn't know what to do with Cheryll, not because i couldn't forget about her(yes that was i lie).
2. I have a short temper, it's part of my personality and you have to accept that. Most people did.
3. It was special coz it was with a very special girl.
4. I don't hate being corrected. I just like fighting for my own beliefs. Lol,that's why I want to become a lawyer. . She's the one who hates being corrected. Very close-mided she is indeed.
5. Well.. Ask all my past gfs if this one is true..
6. (additional) It was really inconsiderate, immature, stupid, REALLY stupid, close-minded(yes close-minded), egocentric of her to say all those stuff.

Well enough bad mouthing..FOR TODAY.. Lol

Anyway. Sorry, just got pissed she made Janina look stupid. So let's move on shall we? To my daily experience of bliss with Janina! Lol.

Things have been great. Though we had this little argument not having enough time for each other but after that..like..5 mins later you wouldn't think we just had a fight. Lol. After a couple of hours, we went online and chatted.. Uhm, i guess it was partly because of the fight we had earlier, why she said sorry she's not someone i could be proud of. Lol, i told her i wasn't looking for someone whom i could be proud of, i'm looking for someone who i could spend the rest of my life with. I know it's a bit corney. But it's true. Though she's both. Someone i'm proud of and someone who i could spend the rest of my life with=D. I mean, what's not to love about her? She's smart, cute(ayan na!pangit!), caring (uber caring), sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet(lol), sexeh(LOLOL), and realistic. Those are just a few of the reasons why I love her.

One major reason has to be because she accepts me for who i am, what i am,what i can be or what i have been. She accepts both my strengths and weaknesses. It's cool, never had someone like that before. So Janina, i know you'll be reading this. Yiheee....Lol, anyway, Thanks for everything. Thanks for putting up with all my crap(not to mention my videos..LOL). Uhm.. Thanks for bringing out the best in me..Just want you to know that everything i do is for you..Heh, i want you to know how important you are and how big of an impact you've made. Mahal Kita ^_^.. I've never been so happy in my whole life. Thanks...

Edit: Sorry for putting this post down for a couple of hours.. Had to, Lol.. But hey, it's my blog..So i'm putting it back on..

/It ends at this point
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